The following comes from Amy Carter's blog "More Than Hope Michigan".
June 4, 2013 Edit
Posted by amiem012 in Uncategorized on June 4, 2013
Here it is June and my head is spinning in circles. I honestly don’t know where to even begin. I guess I will start at the beginning of the year.
In January I decided to cash in my 401k because I had lost my job after 6 years making 50-60k per year, my unemployment was going to be ending and I had not found a source of income because of the constant needs of my son. I purchased a clothing resale shop.
I have yet to be able to take a paycheck and my unemployment stopped in April. I have yet to pay lasts months car and rent payment. Today is June 3rd and I haven’t figure anything out.
I applied for assistance to help pay my rent but the state says my rent is too high and to seek cheaper shelter. My family cannot live in an apartment. My son has extreme behavioral problems, on top of his oppositional defiant disorder and Aspergers. He needs constant supervision and help with everyday tasks.
I don’t even know where to begin to explain my son and his behavior. Tonight consisted of him screaming, swearing, kicking, biting his self and he threatened to kill all of us, I had to stop him from trying to grab a knife to stab hisself.
Saying “I’m going to kill myself. I’m going to stab myself with a knife. I really am. I’m going to do it. I’m getting a knife and I’m going to stab myself”. We would be at the hospital right now if it wasn’t for his sleeping meds that kicked in. Which not only do I not have enough gas money to get to U of M, my car isn’t safe to drive on the expressway and I have to be at the resale shop tmrw.
For the last 3 weeks I have spoke to his principal at least 15 times receive because of his behavior. Today he was sent home early because he was “outta sorts” and didn’t like his substitute teacher.
The last time he was sent home (2 weeks ago) he pulled his dresser on him and we did end up at the hospital. The time before that which was the first time he was sent home, he ended up going by ambulance and was hospitalized for 6 days (he was only 5).
Last week alone I ended up with a swollen eye for three days and a separate incident left me with a fat lip. Community mental health comes over a few hours a week and Jayden is on 4 medications.
Nothing seems to be breaking his pattern or helping. And on top of my sons extreme behavioral problems, our cable, Internet, phones, lights and gas are all about to be shut off. I have applied for social security, a grant, state assistance and called numerous organizations all with dead ends.
No funds available, rent exceeds the limit, we didn’t get picked for the grant. I was approved for food stamps and child care for two weeks and since I only gave them 1 month of profit and loss and not 3. I got cancelled and I have to reapply.
Every time I think I’m getting somewhere something happens. I don’t know what to do. I’m out of solutions. I tried to get in the garage tonight to sell what stuff I have in there for my daughters cheerleading deposit and to be able to make payment arraignments for everything else, and there are critters in the garage. Possibly a family of raccoons.
AHHHH!!! What now? I feel like I’m going to puke. Why can’t something go my way?